Today, April 26th, I come back to talk to you a lot. 

 

I talk a lot, and most of the time, people don`t have the patience to hear me. When I was a kid, I used to write journals. I had several of them, there were a lot of funny stories and sad things too. But when I was in my 20s, I let a boyfriend convince me that I should throw away all my journals because he was jealous. This is one of the few things that I regret in my life. Then, I decided to write again. For who? I don’t know. I know that I found a way to talk. I chose today to start writing because today is my birthday; I am turning 40. Does this choice of date have a deep meaning? No, I don’t think so. But I believe It can be a good day to restart writing.

 

Want you to know about me? Ok! I am a scientist who works in physics. My formation is in the foundations of quantum mechanics. My mom and dad have been divorced since I was six, but they are good parents. I had a difficult childhood because my mom had some psychological and physiological problems that made her violent. I suffered bullying because I am strabical. My eyes were substantially crossed when I was a kid, but when I was 10, I had surgery that improved my eyes a lot. But even after the surgery, the kids were mad at me. In my teens, things got better, but I had other problems, like my mom being aggressive with me. But don’t worry, things are better now.

 

My family is Christian. Although I attended some of their church meetings, I’m not a true believer. As I don’t understand the faith concept, I can’t believe in almost anything. I truly believe only in things that I can understand the basic concepts; as you can guess, those things are few. Even though I don’t have their faith, I have followed the Christian’ concepts all my life. Thus, there is no reason to be far from them. Due to this religious background, I will write a lot of my doubts about Christianity and other religions.

 

In all my life, I only meet one person willing to hear me for hours and hours. This person never complained about me talking too much and paid attention to all I said. Then, I will pretend that I am talking to this person since it gives me the sensation that someone is hearing me.